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So it's been about a week since I posted. I was really hoping to avoid that, but at least the good news is that I've been living my life since I was last here.
I see some of my posts have been views, but I wait for the day that I write something that will leave a reader wanting to leave a comment. Will that be you? Any comment would be much appreciated.
In the meantime I'll go ahead and post what I've been doing the past week:
Monday, December 16th after work I actually met up a group from Meetup.com. It was Orlando Running Club. I ran a little over 2 miles without walking. Towards the end I think I could have kept going, but decided not to push myself. I definitely would be interested in meeting up with the group consistently. They were very friendly and welcoming. I also liked that there were various paces and skill levels plus the age range was broad.
Tuesday and Wednesday I didn't do much, but I am proud to say I'm closer to cleaning out my freezer. It had been full of items that had been expired or already got freezer burned. I did spend time after work just playing video games. I also watched Star Wars: The Last Jedi to prepare for watching Rise of Skywalker
Thursday, December 19th was a fun packed day. At work we had a holiday celebration. I had 3 co-workers dress up as The Grinch, Santa Clause and Mrs. Clause. We were encouraged to bring our children to get presents, meet The Grinch and take pictures of Santa and Mrs. Clause. That part got to me, honestly. It was another reminder that I wasn't married and had children. I think this is when the holidays can be difficult for me and I'm sure there are other people that can relate. At least I got paid not to do actual work. That night I went with my friend to watch Star Wars: Rise of Skywalker. I have to say it was my favorite of the new trilogy produced by Disney. Not to say it was amazing, but I thought it was better than episodes 7 and 8. The best part was I got to watch it with a good friend and we had a really good time. The experience, more than the movie, was what made it special.
Friday, December 20th I went to see my therapist. I was hesitant, but decided to tell her that her forgetting my birthday kind of hurt me especially sense I had let her know previously how much my birthday meant to me. She went to explain that she usually isn't too good with dates anyways. She's really nice and I know she didn't forget it maliciously. I couldn't really read her after that, but I got the sense that she wasn't the same. My overthinking kicked in and I didn't know if she felt bad or if she was judging me for being too needy. After the session I went to get my eyes checked. Luckily my left eye got better, but my right eye got worse. I have really bad vision. It's like at 4.0. My lenses are really think and even after getting the thin lenses they are still really thick. I'm hoping that I can save up to get Lasik in a year or so. At least I did something productive and got that set up. It's been two years since I last got my eye exam. The roofing company was supposed to stop by that day to fix this stain on my roof from a leak, but the guy who was supposed to come had car troubles so that was rescheduled for a future date. I was originally considering going to my board game night, but inevitable ended up not going.
Saturday, December 21st my friend ended up visiting from out of town and went with me to my work holiday party at Universal's Islands of Adventure. It was an "ok" night. She made a good point where it didn't seem like a holiday party, but felt more like it was a holiday gift given by the school to be able to go to Islands of Adventure. I saw just a small handful of my co-workers and it was just short interactions. I was a little offended because when I introduced my friend to one of my co-workers who now works in a different department my co-worker asked how we knew each other. I said we've known each other since high school and after I said that my friend was quick to say "and that's why I will never date Orlando. I know too much about him." I felt that was uncalled for. Maybe she thought my co-worker was going to suggest we date, I don't know, but I still felt insulted by that.
Today - Sunday, December 22nd. After waking up around 10 I ended up going to brunch with my friend before she drove back home. It was honestly an awkward time. We are both introverts and she is also more "higher class." She likes the nicer things and a good example of it is she saw there was dog hair on her passenger side arm rest on my car and she suggested I should have my car detailed. *rolls eyes. Don't get me wrong, I know I just say the bad things about her. She is a loyal and good friend, but we definitely don't match romantically or other things as well. I guess it just made me miss the last girl I dated. She wasn't bougie at all and I always had a lot of fun being around her.
I should probably tell more about her in another post. She is a big part of why I'm not doing well. I also would like to make a better effort to post more and be more strategic and decisive in how I spend my time. This was the reason I made a blog in the first place was to help me not only chronicle my last year in my 30s, but to also make the most of it.
I see some of my posts have been views, but I wait for the day that I write something that will leave a reader wanting to leave a comment. Will that be you? Any comment would be much appreciated.
In the meantime I'll go ahead and post what I've been doing the past week:
Monday, December 16th after work I actually met up a group from Meetup.com. It was Orlando Running Club. I ran a little over 2 miles without walking. Towards the end I think I could have kept going, but decided not to push myself. I definitely would be interested in meeting up with the group consistently. They were very friendly and welcoming. I also liked that there were various paces and skill levels plus the age range was broad.
Tuesday and Wednesday I didn't do much, but I am proud to say I'm closer to cleaning out my freezer. It had been full of items that had been expired or already got freezer burned. I did spend time after work just playing video games. I also watched Star Wars: The Last Jedi to prepare for watching Rise of Skywalker
Thursday, December 19th was a fun packed day. At work we had a holiday celebration. I had 3 co-workers dress up as The Grinch, Santa Clause and Mrs. Clause. We were encouraged to bring our children to get presents, meet The Grinch and take pictures of Santa and Mrs. Clause. That part got to me, honestly. It was another reminder that I wasn't married and had children. I think this is when the holidays can be difficult for me and I'm sure there are other people that can relate. At least I got paid not to do actual work. That night I went with my friend to watch Star Wars: Rise of Skywalker. I have to say it was my favorite of the new trilogy produced by Disney. Not to say it was amazing, but I thought it was better than episodes 7 and 8. The best part was I got to watch it with a good friend and we had a really good time. The experience, more than the movie, was what made it special.
Friday, December 20th I went to see my therapist. I was hesitant, but decided to tell her that her forgetting my birthday kind of hurt me especially sense I had let her know previously how much my birthday meant to me. She went to explain that she usually isn't too good with dates anyways. She's really nice and I know she didn't forget it maliciously. I couldn't really read her after that, but I got the sense that she wasn't the same. My overthinking kicked in and I didn't know if she felt bad or if she was judging me for being too needy. After the session I went to get my eyes checked. Luckily my left eye got better, but my right eye got worse. I have really bad vision. It's like at 4.0. My lenses are really think and even after getting the thin lenses they are still really thick. I'm hoping that I can save up to get Lasik in a year or so. At least I did something productive and got that set up. It's been two years since I last got my eye exam. The roofing company was supposed to stop by that day to fix this stain on my roof from a leak, but the guy who was supposed to come had car troubles so that was rescheduled for a future date. I was originally considering going to my board game night, but inevitable ended up not going.
Saturday, December 21st my friend ended up visiting from out of town and went with me to my work holiday party at Universal's Islands of Adventure. It was an "ok" night. She made a good point where it didn't seem like a holiday party, but felt more like it was a holiday gift given by the school to be able to go to Islands of Adventure. I saw just a small handful of my co-workers and it was just short interactions. I was a little offended because when I introduced my friend to one of my co-workers who now works in a different department my co-worker asked how we knew each other. I said we've known each other since high school and after I said that my friend was quick to say "and that's why I will never date Orlando. I know too much about him." I felt that was uncalled for. Maybe she thought my co-worker was going to suggest we date, I don't know, but I still felt insulted by that.
Today - Sunday, December 22nd. After waking up around 10 I ended up going to brunch with my friend before she drove back home. It was honestly an awkward time. We are both introverts and she is also more "higher class." She likes the nicer things and a good example of it is she saw there was dog hair on her passenger side arm rest on my car and she suggested I should have my car detailed. *rolls eyes. Don't get me wrong, I know I just say the bad things about her. She is a loyal and good friend, but we definitely don't match romantically or other things as well. I guess it just made me miss the last girl I dated. She wasn't bougie at all and I always had a lot of fun being around her.
I should probably tell more about her in another post. She is a big part of why I'm not doing well. I also would like to make a better effort to post more and be more strategic and decisive in how I spend my time. This was the reason I made a blog in the first place was to help me not only chronicle my last year in my 30s, but to also make the most of it.
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